October 18th, 2006

Subject: counting Time: 03:16 am Current Mood: chipper

42 days left till I can legally do ANYTHING i want! yea, you could say i was psyched about that...i want a celebration and i want it fun! that's the only requirement...so get crackin ;)

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October 9th, 2006

Subject: looking back Time: 10:00 pm

ok, i just looked at a few of my past entries and they seemed like all i talked about was the bad stuff....but i am happy too! there are hyst a few things that keep happening but hopefully it will look up from here. ok, but i am happy too...

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Subject: i just don't know Time: 09:52 pm Current Mood: depressed

home life is pretty screwed up recently, hopefully it is on its way to getting better, but who really knows. sometimes i wish i wasn't so afraid of what was to come or what happens with everything in my life, maybe i would talk more about it and not be scared what some people would think/say...oh well, at least i have the ones i do i wish this semester in school was closer to be over with...i think im sick of school in general because im still clueless what i really want to do, so it seems like i am just going to classes and i don't know what for. but i guess it is something that i have to do....... ok, this seems depressing so im not writing anymore

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September 28th, 2006

Time: 07:10 pm Current Mood: cynical

my family seems to be soooo screwed up sometimes! and i swear it seems like it is just mine but i know it isn't...but it's just hard to think otherwise! well the good thing is that im not afraid to call people up and tell them that they are fuckin idiots and get some emotion out there that i used to not share with anyone...but it doesn't really solve anything, and people just don't seem to listen to me...when in actuality you should cause im a smart gal and i know what im talking about, at least when it comes to thinking logically and not stupidly like some seem to do! gonna go mope now...

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September 12th, 2006

Subject: life is grand sometimes Time: 11:15 pm Current Mood: indescribable

life is grand sometimes. right now, im not loving life...but im also not hating life.... school is school...lots of work that i procrastinate in doing. classes im not thrilled about going to...pretty much the same as every semester seems to go. what fun. cooking seems to be pretty fun, i enjoy it more than i thought and i almost always like the end result, except tonight when i took a short cut and made a frozen dinner and it was awful. im hoping the rest of this week speeds by, and that this weekend is entertaining, but no promises there, cause this is clarku. time to get ready for bed and climb into bed shortly.

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September 10th, 2006

Subject: smells Time: 11:15 pm Current Mood: weird

our apartment is full of many different smells...skunks and corn...

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September 7th, 2006

Subject: pissed off! Time: 10:50 pm Current Mood: pissed off

wow, sometimes people piss me off so much im at a loss for words and dont even know what to say to them to call them out on it...i just had one of those moments! it feels like i am getting screwed in many different ways lately and that is not a cool thing to be experiencing..... FUCKIN PISSED!

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September 4th, 2006

Subject: life sucks sometimes Time: 10:47 pm

wow, so sometimes life just seems to throw a bunch of shit at you all at once and it sucks! i don't want to elaborate on this too much to save face but it really needs to get better from here!

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August 18th, 2006

Subject: yay! Time: 10:13 pm Current Mood: happy

tomorrow i leave for vacation for a week, i think....i might come home early we will have to see. i think it will be fun, im ready to get out of the burg...there isn't too much exciting stuff to stay around for. i move into school in 8 days, that is totally awesome! i can't wait to be back and having a fun time with the girls. hopefully meet a few new ones this year! life is crazy sometimes...but it keeps moving on so i guess that is the good news!

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August 16th, 2006

Subject: life Time: 09:02 pm Current Mood: calm

well life has had its ups and downs these last few days but right now it seems to be doing okay. last night was a flippin blast, i went down to kate's apartment and there were like 8 of us down there hanging out, having a few drinks....it was pretty cool...then it got more adventurous as the morning arrived.... i am psyched to go back to school but i am not psyched to go through all of my shit and organize it and figure out what i want/need to bring back with me....and that is what tomorrow and friday are going to be...fun fun. then i leave for vacation on saturday, i hope i have a fun time....if not i will come back cause i will have my car up there, but i think it will be nice to get out of the burg and away for a bit and then i come back and into school i move! i miss my school buds like whoa...we are definitely going to have a bring bang when we get back. im jealous of the people who are already back at school... today was a good day, because it was my first day of no work but i seriously did like nothing and it felt great. i had a chicked stir fry wrap from d'angelos for dinner and it was surprisingly quite tasty! i reccommend it.

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August 13th, 2006

Time: 09:07 pm Current Mood: exhausted

A - Available: yes, hoping to change it soon. A - Age: 20....can't wait for 21 A - Annoyance: someone... B - Best feature: you tell me B - Beer: not too picky, but some are definitely better than others B - Birthday: Nov. 29 C - Crush: can't say yet... C - Car: chyrsler C - Candy: snickers D - Day or night: depends....i would say day D - Dream Car: a nice one D - Dogs or Cats: dogs E - Egg nog: never had it E - E-mail: yup, got 2 F - Favorite color: depends what it is....i like orange though F - Favorite Band: don't have one G - Gummy Bears or Worms: either G - Giver or taker: take H - Hair Color: brown H - Height: 5'6" H - Happy: trying to be... I - Ice Cream: monster mash, coffee heath bar, coffee, cookies n cream... I - Instrument: im musically lacking I - Idol: J - Job: 2 days left of nannying, and hopefully bookstore after that J - Jail: never been, i think it would be funny...don't ask K - Kids: working with 2 all the time makes me realize i can wait to have them, im in nooo rush K - Kickboxing or karate: used to do karate....haha K - Kindergarten: St. Joes L - Longest Car Ride: 10 hours M - Milk Flavor: regular...im a fan of skim milk now M - Most missed person: My school buddies....2 weeks left! M - Movie Last Watched: Final Destination 3 N - Number of Siblings: 2 N - Number of Tattoos: zero N - Name: Rebecca O - One wish: if i say it won't come true....but i just made one :) O - One regret: don't wanna say P - Part of your appearance you like best: don't know Q - Quick or Slow: slow R - Reason to smile: being happy R - Reality TV Show: i like a few too many.... S - Song Last Heard: a song in amy's car.... S - Season: fall S - Shoes your wearing: flippers T - Time you woke up: and stayed up? 9am T - Time Now: 9:17pm T - Time for bed: soon, it has been a long weekend im exhausted U - Unpredictable: can be V - Vegetable you hate: brussel sprouts....but i do llike a lot of veggies V - Vegetable you love: corn, tomatoes, green beans... V - Vacation spot: this year a lake in the white mtns....but i love the cape W- Worst Habits: .... W- Where are you going to travel next: northward W- Weather: right now? cool X - X-tra special someone: me, of course! Y - Year it is now: 2006 Y - Yellow: stop light...you can still make it through :) Z - Zoo Animal: gorilla...i wouldn't want to run into one outside of the zoo....

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August 12th, 2006

Time: 10:37 pm Current Mood: pissed off

i really didn't know that one's life could be this fucked up and i still be able to have a good head on my shoulders.... moving back to school is sounding more and more appealing each day.... the locks on my own house have been changed to prevent me from getting in.... i need a strong beverage to get me out of this and i need one asap. pissed off does not even start to say how mad i am right now!

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August 10th, 2006

Subject: ahhh! Time: 08:41 pm Current Mood: bitchy

geez, i really wish people would listen to me once in a while...im not as stupid as most people think i am!!!

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August 7th, 2006

Subject: boring Time: 07:31 pm Current Mood: cynical

my 'subject' is boring, because that seems to be my life recently....rather boring. besides some family issues nothing else is too exciting. sometimes i think my family is pretty messed up, and recently that is definitely how i feel, i just don't know how i can be related to idiots. i have 7 days left of work, unfortunately that still seems like a long time, and i wish it were shorter than that. but oh well, at least i get paid. i move in to school in 19 days, i honestly can not wait for that. i will be staying there alot this year, hopefully not hitting up the burg too much, cause there is honestly like nothing to do here, but my fellow amigos are more than welcome to come and stay at my apartment in the lovely worcester, cause that would be cool! i got this new deodorant this weekend, and i absolutely love it. it is great and it smells delicious, like if someone was cooking something that smelt like my deodorant i would eat it, it is delcicious smelling, not like i want to eat my deodorant but....you get what i mean. i want a drink, wait i wanna get drunk...that sounds more appealing right now. for some reason i am not in a good mood and i don't know why.....well...i take half of that back. i think i might be coming down with some sort of ear infection, but i don't really know because i have never had a ear infection before....hmm, that would suck if i was.

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July 25th, 2006

Subject: summer time Time: 07:04 pm Current Mood: contemplative

okay, so this is probably boring news by now because number one i probably mention it almost everytime i write in here and i talk about if we actually talk to eachother. I WANT TO MOVE BACK TO SCHOOL!! okay so now that it is out, once again and i have about 31 days until i move in. other good news is that i have 15 days left of work, at the most!! geez, i hope it goes by fast but i know that it won't! this past weekend was both dull and spontaneous. friday i went and visited with my gram for a while and we tried out a new pizza place which was actually really good, La Bella on John Fitch Highway. Then I went and hung out/chatted with Laura, nothing to exciting but it was nice to catch up because we haven't seen eachother in quite a while...Saturday I pretty much did absolutely nothing, I layed on the couch all day long, well except for the fact that I got out of my pj's at 1:30 and went to Walmart with Mom to get some school stuff, and then came home put my pj's back on and then changed again to go out to a BBQ for a few hours saturday night. But it was definietly nice to do just about nothing all day long, and be home alone all day too! :) Sunday was better, went to lunch with the girls (minus 1) and then we all went to Boston because there is like nothing to do in Fitchburg, however on a Sunday late afternoon/evening there is not much at all to do in Boston because everything closes early. So that was a bummer, but it was still cool. I don't really know what is going to happen this weekend yet, except that I have to work on saturday for a few hours. and then sunday i am not sure, i might get to see my long lost pal, Kristee for a bit or I might go to a concert.....not sure yet. It is almost August....which means it is almost the 27th.....which means.... ps- i hate this hot and sticky weather....i want the comfortable weather or even just the heat without the humidity. oh well, mother-nature doesn't check with me first before she decides to make the weather shitty...or good for that matter.

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July 21st, 2006

Subject: hum-drum Time: 01:45 pm Current Mood: tired

alright so i don't really know what to do, i was supposed to go down to the cape tonight and come home on saturday but now i heard there is supposed to be massive amounts of rain coming through and i don't really know if it is worth it to go down and have to stay at the house the whole time...but what will i do here? probably nothing.. nothing has really changed since i last wrote which was....a while ago. a few nights ago i came home from work to find out a kid i graduated with died over in Iraq and he was supposed to come home in 2 weeks...damn that sucks. I did not really know him that well, but no matter who it is it is still sad. Besides he was 20 that is just sucky to die that young.... a little less than a month left of working and then a vacation to the middle of nowhere and then MOVE IN TIME! geez, i am way excited for this, i just wish i got to see it beforehand so i would know what i needed to get but oh well... hmm...what else? nothing i guess....

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July 9th, 2006

Subject: once again Time: 02:52 pm Current Mood: calm

okay so once again, i seem to be bad at keeping this up to date reguarly. i get on a good streek for a little while and then it stops again.... i don't know what i was talking about last time i wrote, or even how long ago it was but i haven't done anything that spectacular since...because i haven't done anything great really all summer.... work is work, some days it is more enjoyable than others but that is probably the norm at most jobs.... i went and saw pirates of the caribbean at the drive-ins last night, what an awesome movie, i absolutely loved it, i wanna see it again. but before i do i want to watch the first one again, so that the few unanswered questions i had might be answered first. definietly wasn't a disappointment though and now i can't wait for the third one to come out! :) i really can't wait until i move back to school with the girls in our apartment, that is just flippin spectacular and we are going to have a blast, i know it! and i definitely want visitors, like come and stay and party with us. and i turn 21 before the first semester is over, so that is even better! no more worries after that, :) nothing else is really going on lately, and i don't have much else to say.....i miss alot of people and want to get together!!! i got a weird phone call the other night.....that's all there is too say about it....but call me back...... kjdfjhgdngrengaoewn

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June 12th, 2006

Subject: monday.... Time: 08:56 pm Current Mood: mellow

this weekend was decent. can't complain. friday i babysat, which was okay i slept more than half the time i was there, so at least i accomplished something! saturday, me and kate had some bonding-time, we hung out for awhile we took a few drives, it was nice. saturday late afternoon/night-ish, i went over ashley's and we talked for a little and then we watched some old time Boy Meets World episodes, which was really fun, because I love that show and it is amazing that you can watch like 3 episodes in 1 hour without those stupid commercial breaks in there. we gotta do that again, and maybe make it like a whole night thing or something. i also got to eat her dad's famous pizza, which was quite tasty and he is opening a restaurant soon and i reccommend that you go and eat it. :) then we went and saw Cars, it was an okay movie, i don't highly reccommend it but it was okay...rent it on vhs when it comes out, better use of your mulah. sunday i caught up on sleep, i really don't know why i have been so tired lately and now is when the actual work-days start like morning-night, and none of that glorious afternoon-afternoon/night. then me and kate went over to the kaz's for maryellens grad party, which was pretty fun, we just hung out chit-chatted, looked at old pictures, played a game (of course :)). so that was a pretty detailed, probably more info than you cared about itinerary of my weekend. this week work-wise is pretty crazy, ill be all over northen worcester county driving around, most likely getting lost. because i have not really been impressed with mapquest lately. oh well... i think i might call for a pedicure in the near future....i could really use a foot massage, and everyone that i ask will not give me one :( and today was the first day..well maybe not first but it doesn't happen often that kate told me my feet smell....i hate smelly feet, maybe i will have to do something about that...but maybe not. "im an underachiever, not an idiot"...i just heard that and i really love it. i think it describes me and a bunch of the rest of the world at certain times.

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June 9th, 2006

Subject: friday Time: 01:00 pm Current Mood: lazy

i love fridays, although today i have done absolutely nothing but that is okay sometimes too. im trying to think of something to do this afternoon...but thus far i haven't come up with anything. i have plans tonight. but nothing for saturday or sunday so i would love to be able to do something fun and exciting. give me a ring, cause i am incapable of ringing you.... :) i haven't been able to sleep late, like i would be able too. especially when i don't have to work, or lately when i haven't had to go to work until like 2:30ish. but next week that all changes, ill be up at the ass crack of dawn with the rest of the working world...joys i can not wait....for it to be over with. :) i told my mom the other day that i can't wait for retirement, i think that is kinda funny seeing as though i haven't started really working full-time year round...i hope that is not a sign. hopefully i will find an awesome job that i love that pays really well too! :) (i know this is babble but i don't know what else to write about) ive been in a hat mood recently. because my hair is obnoxious, like i can't do anything with it and i don't know what to put in it so it doesn't go crazy and it is not as stiff as a board. so i put some stuff in it and then put a hat on and if i do say so myself it is pretty darn cuteish. :) i am in a movie-going mood. i could see just about any movie really, so if you want to go let me know. but on my list of movies that are currently out that i want to see are: the omen, & cars those are the only ones that are out right now. but i really want to see that devil wears prada. i really like anne hathaway, i think is her name she was in princess diaries which is one of my favorite movies, i just love it. ok, i am pale so i want the sun to come out so that way i can be outside and get some color and i really want to join a gym or even just exercise regularly because i need to, i just have a problem that i like food too much. wanna go with me? alright, well peace out for now. *remember call me because i have no plans on saturday or sunday*

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June 8th, 2006

Subject: it's raining....again Time: 02:04 pm Current Mood: listless

this weather is not to uplifting. i want the sunshine to come, but i want the humidity to stay away. not much has really happened in this exciting life of mine, i wish there was something to write about..but there isn't. i have been watching the first season of niptuck on dvd lately, it is good in a weird way. now i want to watch the rest of the seasons and then hopefully it will be new on tv again soon. see there really is nothing to write about...im writing about watching tv. you should change that, and give me something to do. i want a guy in my life...do you know of one that i could have? im taking suggestions..or guys for that matter. :) i wish money were neverending, not like i spend it all the time, but i wish i could spend it without worrying that i will run out one day. boy meets world is a really good show, i wish it were still on with new episodes, and not the daily repeats, but i still like those too. i wanna drive a fire-truck, but i don't wanna be a fire-fighter. do you think they like lend it out to like test-drive, and so that i could say "ive drove a fire-truck, but not a fire-fighter"? okay, this was like full of totally random pretty stupid stuff but i wanted to update and had nothing to fill it with. :(

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